I Bet You Do

Do you send her those songs that you said were mine?
I bet you do
Do you look in her eyes and tell her they shine?
I bet you do
Do you remake those poems with her name in each line?
I bet you do
Do you tell her she is your first and only
That when you’re apart you get o so lonely
And you hope all her dreams will come true
I bet you do

Cause you are a smooth talker
You know just what to say to get your way and make em stay

Do you talk her into believing your lies?
I bet you do
Do you make her feel guilty whenever she cries?
I bet you do
Do you cut her down whenever she tries?
I bet you do
Do you tell her you want to get married someday
You wanna have kids and a backyard for play
Do you tell her you love her even though it’s not true
I bet you do

Cause you are a smooth talker
You know just what to say to get your way and make em stay
And everyday you build the walls up higher still
So you can’t love no one for real
And you never ever have to feel
Even with all those hearts you steal
Do you know what it’s like to be hurt and abused
To be played with and used
And wrongly accused
Do you know how it feels to be treated by you
I bet you do

He Is

I am a goofy laugh
A stretched out smile
And tiny squinty eyes perched on
Rounded dimpled cheeks

I am dark hair
And a warm snuggly hug
Delicious smelling cologne
Clinging to a polo shirt

I am curiously aware
Watching what goes on
Open, Honest, Interested
And I remember what you like

I am a gentle protective hand
Resting on your waist
Sending tingles through your skin
And butterflies to your tummy

I am a timid first kiss
Like bubbles touching in air
Bursting on contact and melting away
Leaving a sweet taste behind

I am a shoulder to cry on
Arms to hold you
Hands to help you
And a heart to love you

This is what I am

Collision

I can shut the world out by just closing my eyes
So simply that it takes no effort
One eyelid
Two
Thin layers of skin protecting me
Darkness is my solace
Keeps me from going insane
An emotionless mask graces my face, hiding me from all that I see
That I might be
I cannot see it coming, so therefore does it not come?
A car rushing towards me
Time freezes
And in the aftermath that teases I realize
A piece is missing from the puzzle
A crease in the fabric
A cease in the fire
From the sight of the beast and the screech of the tire
To the loudest silence I’ve ever heard
Panic
Tears forming
Breath heaving
Satanic
A ghostly thought creeps in my soul
Is this it?
I’m sickened to the point of dread
A mistake I can’t take back
No rewind button, no do over to play
My eyes close again keeping demons at bay
The angry jaws locked on my hood
A heinous flaw etched in the glass
And pain
Unrelenting and unforgiving
A shout pregnant with anger and blame
Snakes its way across the smoky battlefield
To my…undamaged ear
A hammer and chisel
Chipping hastily away at my fragile composure
And down fall the tears
As confirmed are my fears
That this…
This is big
Too big for me
Is this really my fault?
What have I done?
Guilt and fear, shame and dread
With the small consolation that…
At least no one’s dead
But that glaring crunch in the hood of my car
Locked on the bumper of a big SUV
Our scar of cars ripped on a one lane road
And the sound of the sirens that strode on the air
A rush to our aid
A blush on my face
Telling my side was only a waste
Repeating my name and age for the umpteenth time
With head and wrist throbbing
And an unsettling ringing in my deafened ear
Until every paramedic, firefighter, and cop
Had viewed the place where we came to a stop
Furrowed brow, streaming tears
The fear almost gone
But something’s not right
It still feels all wrong
Lurking in the back
An eerie sneering gremlin
But pain and hurt trump this thought
Locking it away in a tight box
Soon all I know are comforting arms and caresses